I think it's hard to blog. I'm not a "diary" person. It's hard for me to come on and talk about basically nothing other than my frogs! lol I have no kids, husband, life lol so I have nothing that interesting to talk about. I could talk about my work, but who cares about that! haha!
I will say though, i'm jealous of my friends who are getting new teacher positions for the next school year and I know I won't be in the classroom. Some days I feel like I made a deal with the Devil to work here, and then other days I feel like it's all worth it. I do know if I go back to teaching in the fall/spring I will need to work a 2nd job to keep all that I have. I don't want to work 2 jobs again! I did that last fall, teaching all day then trying to work nights and weekends. I was exhausted all the damn time.
I'm a big believer everything happens for a reason, and I know that I came back to this job so I can buy my condo and be on my own again, but I also feel like I sacrafice being happy for a job. I truly am so friggen bored at my job I think sticking needles in my eyes would be much better.
I think if the perks were actually given to me like I was told ie travel, I wouldn't be so bored at work. I hate being in an office, I hate being tied to a desk, and I feel like I offer nothing. It's not rocket scientist work to type a letter. A friggen monkey could do that. Im not making a difference in this world by sitting here. In a classroom i'd be making a difference in the eyes of a child.
Maybe i'm just having a pity party today since I just heard the news of friends getting new schools to teach in. I know i'm here for some reason, it'll come to me eventually. For now i'll just have to be jealous and envious of everyone else.
I just feel all my hard work on going back to school to get my degree, all the pressure and the stress was all for nothing now, as I sit in this office next to a co-worker who I truly want to kick the shit out of! If they allowed violence in the workplace I would kick her in the head everyday! lol
Okay, I'm outta here. I already feel my blood pressure rising! lol
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Linda, you have just become a blogger!! thats what blogging is all about! Let out the frustration, talk about what you see during the day that is funny or just talk about how you feel.
there are no rules.
I know you must be hugely frustrated to not be teaching, I really wish there was a simple answer. but the bottom line right now is money... hang in there, something special is waiting for you right around the corner.
hugs!
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